Things have been pretty busy around here- and also my lack of posting has been more carpal tunnel related than anything else- but here I am again, poking my head in the door and saying HI!
Marcel has been struggling with a eczema problem for a while now and it had gotten pretty bad (mostly his own fault for not following the doctors directions- MEN!) and now things are getting better with that or at least I hope so- finally! I also hope he’s learned his lesson with not following directions, but you never really know do you?
Life has been somewhat of a whirlwind of emotions lately- and I’ve been doing pretty good with myself. I still need to start doing some strength training- but I am working on making that goal happen and getting into a routine. I can talk about it until I’m blue in the face- but action is the only way to see results- and results I will see!
I had a few bad days Easter weekend- Denny got married (Denny is my uncle and was Carol’s (My best friend for many years) husband.) Most of you know that she passed away a little over two years ago. I knew he had been dating and knew he was engaged- but the wedding still kind of knocked me off kilter. It isn’t that I don’t want him to be happy or to move on, because I’m a firm believer in being happy and grasping it while you can- and also that I believe we should move on- but there is still a part of me that has a few ‘what ifs’ in my soul. It serves no purpose other than it’s just one of those human emotions that we feel, but it was real and with the help of someone who has become a dear friend, I feel much, much better. I knew that I needed to feel it- in order to heal so that’s what I allowed of myself. Surprisingly, I didn’t go off on a food binge rampage- which I would have done in the past. I stuck close to my calorie range- and went over one day, but it wasn’t a train wreck and I’m happy about it.
Last night- I ran into one of my neighbors who asked if I’d lost any weight. I told her that honestly I wasn’t sure- because I hadn’t seen a number on the scale because I’m not finding the scales important at the moment- but that I ‘felt’ that things were happening but that I still needed to kick things up a notch. We talked a little about life- and the passing of one of our neighobrs a few days ago (she was coming from the wake when I ran into her) and just how fragile life really is.
I’ve made a conscious decision to walk in the light- to avoid negative people and those who are energy vampires. It’s a great feeling!

Little Things
Ever have the feeling that you really need to get away for about a week and just spend some quality time with yourself? That’s how I have been feeling the past few days. I don’t feel as though anything is ‘wrong’, nor am I upset or anything like that- I just want a little break to spend some time with me without any type of distractions. No Internet, no telephone, no distractions.
Since that isn’t likely to happen, I’ll embrace the great people and space I have around me- and steal quiet moments when I can to center myself and think about where I am coming from and what I’m moving into. I’ve been learning a lot about myself lately- and I still have some to learn. There are a couple of places where I’m not where I want to be- and I know that I need to dig a little deeper to get to the root of why.
A week later- (today) I was finally able to wish Denny and Debbie congrats and a happy life together. I know- it doesn’t seem like much, but it is something I’ve had to let go of. It’s not something that consumed me, but it was something I had a hard time with for many reasons that I may never share here, but I am happy he’s not alone and I do wish them a lot of happiness together. I’m happy for the progress.
I’ve also decided that I want to start training again for a 5k- so that I can complete one this year. Granted- I know I could complete one now- but I want to be able to ‘run’ and for that I need to train. If I’m home during the time- I plan to go to run the Color Run in New Orleans. It looks like an amazing place to do my first 5k- but we’ll see how it works out. It just seems to match my personality- and it makes me smile.